YOU LEFT ME IN DELIMMA

Love life, Do good, lives well. These three words and you said good bye to this selfish world, why? I need answer give me answer why Sweaty why? But I know you can’t give answer as you don’t have words to speak in front of me. I have heard “Man loves little and often, but woman much and rarely” But this saying went totally opposite for me “I love you much and rarely but you little and often” if not then tell me why did you take such a big decision without asking me once. Doesn’t matter you have asked me or not but it matters because “you left my life in dilemma” What should I do? Should I join you or should I live in this word with my hopeless breath. Many of my friend used to say “never love anything that cannot love you back” it is somehow going to be true. What did I get back from you except the river of tears in my eyes? There is always a reason for everything, a reason to live, a reason to die and a reason to cry. But if you can’t find a reason to smile can I be reason for a while these are not my words these are your words which you used to give me like teachers lecture but what happen now you don’t have words to describe. Take me where you want go even I will sleep in front of you in the garbage. I need you, not your wealth. There is a famous saying “Every girl may not be queen for her boy friend but a princess for her father” but no this is not the truth because you are the only one who made place in my heart and you are the only queen for this king.

                             Hi, how r u? I love you; you are my destiny still these words mingle with me here and there. When I remember these words, I think you will be with me whole life. But when I get out from my dream again my tears starts falling and I realize after 5 months I have to stay alone in this world. You are leaving just memories nothing more in this world, how will you end your breath when I will be crying in front of you , will it be easy my sweet heart? I want touch your toe before your last breath because I had hurt you more than any one does. Might be god will not forgive me but promise me you will forgive your baby boy.  Please believe me you are the one whom my heart finds, whom my mind reminds, whom my destiny wants and whom I love the most. I will try keep my eyes on the stars and I will search you there please give me a shine so that I can recognize you. I compare our love more crystal than love of Romeo and Juliette.  I have faith on god he won’t take Juliette away from his Romeo. Though this is the saying by someone but I will make it true “I want hug you until u feel safe, I want kiss you until world disappears and I want love you until I die. You have already decided your destiny but what about me. Should I follow you or should I search another who never can take your place. Damn to that god who help us being together. Whenever I said lets marry you said tomorrow but now tomorrow is going to be your last day in this world. Though you will never meet me again I will search you; in the crowd, in the air, in my dream and in the shining little stars. Hope you won’t forget your bad boy. Now I have two things to do in my life; one apologizing of my mistakes and second giving you happy ending. Thank you a lot for being my girl thank you a lot bye again invite me soon so that we can live happily together.

MY ALL LOVE TO SOMEONE SPECIAL

Sometimes it makes me laugh because I don’t have girlfriend. Sometimes I am jealous of my friends when they go dating to big shopping malls. Two years ago, on this date, situations forced me to give up love for the first time in my life. Some boys feel they need to love thousands of girls but a real man knows how to love one girl in a thousand ways. This happens at a young age because this is the 21^st century, and it is odd for boys if they don’t love more than 5 girls. I am also a young guy. I have to think many times before using these words but I cannot stop myself because no one realizes until and unless he once fails in his life. Many of my friends might say, “This man is crazy” but I don’t care about them because I know the truth is always bitter. My hip hop and rock friends cannot realize the pain one feels to leave someone because of that blind god who always gives them whatever they want.

                   Its earth-shattering craziness that I fell in love with someone, and its gods curse that I lost someone in my life. Thank you for your sweet, kind heart and how can I forget to thank god that he lift you away from my life. Tell me where I made a mistake. Please don’t blame me.  I had sacrificed everything for but you naughtily you sacrificed your life.   It haunts every being in this world the fear of getting older but what a mess; this makes me happy. Those days will be wonderful days of my life. I am the man who wants to celebrate his last moment, it’s because of someone. It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. People think I am good guy but they don’t know what a bastared I am who is stubborn and never tries to accept the truth. My friends, my guardians, my teachers see a smile on my face but my inner part, my heart never smiles because it is impossible to forget someone. Love in my life has left my whole life in confusion because I don’t have confidence in my life. It’s because of that small accident in my life. It causes disaster for me and I cannot stand on my own feet. Sometimes I cry the whole night and day, and pray to the blind god to give me freedom from this dirty and selfish world. I have heard where there is love there are miracles but it is not the truth. I request her to take me where she is, but she also became blind as the time passed. She taught me how to love, but not how to stop. You offer me love, I feel your feeling, my wisdom flows from the highest source, I salute that source in you.

So please blind god, “If you have got your eyes back take me where she is. And give me a chance to enjoy being with her. If you cannot take me there, please give her two red roses, each with a note. The first note says all my love for you and second one say thanks for leaving me alone in this world. Bye never comes again in my life. Let me stay here with my hopeless life and I don’t need others guidance. You call it madness, but I call it love bye forever from my life. My life is like a vicious liquid so I am trying to abandon it. I always try to make everyone laugh though my eye lashes are dipped in tears.  I am going to Mary that girl whom I have never kissed. Even as I am with this new creature of god I will try to make my life lonely. Its all my love for someone special.